Friday, 5 September 2008
I had some P&C work to do at the school this morning. Samuel stayed with Melissa, my sister in law, so I was able to relax and get it done without worrying about him being stuck in his stroller.
I've been isolating myself of late. On here, a little. Everywhere else, a lot. Not making it to church very often. Not staying and talking at school. Not spending any time at all with friends or family. I can't help it. I'm feeling incredibly vulnerable right now, and don't know how to explain it to anyone.
But today, I made an effort. I stayed and had coffee at the school. I got done what I needed, and felt relieved. I was ready to leave at 10.30, morning tea time, so I thought I'd pop by and give Alexander a quick hug before I went.
Instead, I was greeted by just about his entire class. All wanted to say Hello, and I had to chat to every one of them, individually, before they'd let me leave. I love his class, and have gotten to know the children (and more than a few of the parents) pretty well this year. They see me often around the school, and it's gratifying every time they flock to me. It's amazing how much of a lift it gave me today.
I walked out to the car, already feeling better. The scent of jasmine (one of my very favourite) filled my senses and I stopped a moment, letting my body and my mind relax. I felt, for that momemt, joy, contentment.
I love the spring.