A minor altercation with his brother over a bath toy. Screams, a tug of war. A flooded bathroom. A time out. Harsh words.
A flash, just a moment of pure rage crossed his eyes. His fists balled, fingers white. A deep breath in. A long, slow one catches on the way out.
And he implodes. Into heartbreak. Utter, wretched heartbreak. He cries the most sorrowful, agonized years, and my heart splinters for this child of mine. He makes no mention of any other event, but that it hurts his heart to have me upset with him.
He tried to give Samuel one of his most prized possessions, to prove to me that he was a nice boy. Samuel, being two and oblivious took no note. Alexander's heart broke further, and he became inconsolable.
While he may swear he is not upset about Tuesday (despite admitting to nightmares), something is catching up on my poor boy. :-(
oh the poor little one. My heart aches for him, and for you. Beautifully expressed.
ReplyDeleteoh, poor Alexander :( yes, it seems that he is definitely troubled by what has happened.
ReplyDeleteI just read this post from a link on Heather's page. I had to go back to yesterday's to see what you were referring to.
ReplyDeleteI'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face and a snotted up nose. I can only imagine how badly you feel.
Actually I can imagine as I have a boy who also does not assert himself and who keeps things bottled up.
Fortunately he's actually fairly popular at school and hasn't had any major bullying issues, but I know they will come. Because I know him and I know the type bullies pick on and he fits that type.
All you can do, I guess, it be there for him when he needs you. Hold him and hug away his tears. And be prepared for more outbursts, of course.
(And try not to visit the boy who did it with a baseball bat in hand).
Oh Mel
ReplyDeleteMy heart is aching for you. I have tears in my eyes. Poor Alexander I cannot even imagine how I would react in this situation.