Please understand that I wrote that in a very, very bad moment. I was upset and struggling, but even I knew that I'm over reacting.
My mind won't switch it off and that is something that I need to deal with. I'm struggling with my anxiety in general, it is swirling around me and I'm on edge all of the time.
Alexander is doing far better than I. It is my intention to keep it that way. I understand that I cannot just pull him out of school. I understand that 90% of his school experience is wonderful. Please understand that so is mine. I have met 3 of the best friends I will ever have and between them and their sons, we are both being looked after.
This post was less about Alexander being bullied than it was about my irrational reaction to it. It is about my fears, my inability to switch it off in my head.
I just don't want anyone thinking that it is all terrible and he is suffering at school. This is just me being me, insecure and irrational and paranoid. I'm slightly manic at the moment and have not seen a doctor in more than 6 months. It's clearly time I did.