I take a small sip of my coffee and close my eyes. The breeze swirls around me and goosebumps appear on my arms. It's a beautiful day - Brisbane finally getting the hint that Summer is gone. We're back at our favourite park, and it seems dozens of families have had the same idea.
Eyes still closed, I try to make my body relax. Put aside the tension and the angst of the past few weeks and just feel happy, even for just a moment. I start at my toes, kicking off my shoes and burying them in the soft grass. Deep slow breaths as I listen to the sounds around me. The breeze, whipping through the trees, making the heavy branches sway, almost as they have put on a show for us. Autumn leaves are carried along with it, meandering down to the thousands of others already on the ground.
Another deep breath and I smell the pine trees, sausages and bacon. The latter two make me retreat back to my coffee, trying to escape their reach. I hate sausages. The sky is a beautiful blue today, with huge fluffy white clouds like pillows. I lay back and stare at them and I feel my muscles relax. For as long as I can remember, cloud watching has been one of my favourite things to do.
I sip my coffee, and try to read a few pages of my book. But as is always the case, it's not long before I set it aside and join my boys. And for a couple of hours at least, I'm able to pretend this wasn't a terrible weekend. Pretend not to notice that he hasn't kissed me in 2 days. For now it's just the four of us, and all is perfect.
Soon enough the fluffy white clouds have made way for some darker, more ominous rainclouds and we are on our way home. I steel myself to take this more relaxed mood home with me and spend the last hours of our long weekend wrapped up in my 3 men.